From The Depths

February 13, 2009 at 9:23 am 6 comments


Oh crap.
Look who’s “back”.
Just when you thought I’d given up forever. I have submerged from the swamp.

First of all I feel like I should apologize for my sudden and prolonged absence. It seems to be the case that when things are going well, or at least ok, I’m in the mood to blog. But when the shit hits the fan, I tend to clam up. No sense in sharing my crap. At least not while I’m wallowing in it. But since things have been looking up lately, and with a little prodding from a friend, I’m making a comeback.

At first there was the school situation with Big M. He received some impressive awards at his 6th grade graduation and I was so proud of him. But the first 3 months of Jr. High proved to be challenging to say the least. It wasn’t the material so much as it was just turning it in, with his name on it! “If Mr./Mrs/Ms. Teacher doesn’t ask for it…” ARGGGHHH!!!

But the main deal was late last year I was hit with the news that I had gone as far as I could go as a contractor with my current company. And due to their permanent head-count they could not take me as a direct employee. So I was out on my ear right before the holiday break. I knew the risks of taking that job but I needed it to be near my son and it worked out for us at that time. There is always the opportunity to go permanent when you contract out to a company, but it took me a while to figure out that I was working for the aerospace equivalent of Wal-Mart. They would rather train someone new, year after year, than keep someone who knows what the fuck they’re doing. Turns out I had the longest run at that position than any previous contractor. But looking back now, I’m sure that position will be absorbed by our corporate office that has been slowly stealing our department’s responsibilities over the past year.

After that, I guess I fell into a depressive slump after tallying up the events of my life for the past 7 years. I’ve been through…let’s see…an ugly divorce from my best friend, the death of my mom, foreclosure on my house and now, loss of employment. I think I’m being seriously tested.

But I think I’m going to be ok. I came to the realization that I’m free. Free!
Free to re-invent myself. Free to study and finish so many things that I’ve wanted to do.

So I’m thinking…now that I’ve been through the proverbial ringer, things can only get better, right? Right?


Well, one thing is for sure.

I’m no fucking quitter.


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6 Comments Add your own

  • 1. Some Guy  |  February 13, 2009 at 1:57 pm

    Great to see you back, MN! Enjoy your new-found freedom!

  • 2. mixednut  |  February 13, 2009 at 4:17 pm

    SG – Thanks dude!

  • 3. Teri  |  February 13, 2009 at 11:08 pm

    I think after we see all the bad then we tend to look for the good in a situation. You are free to do things that you want to do. Hopefully you can work around the whole economy crap. This is a great time to go back to school or learn a new trade.

    Hopefully the government has enough financial resources that folks can get assistance and still some of those things.

    BTW, you don’t have to leave blogging just because the “shit is hitting the fan”. No one has to know your business, unless you tell them and blogging is a good diversion, at times.

  • 4. mixednut  |  February 14, 2009 at 1:48 am

    Yo Teri – I’m looking to take off in a different direction. Change things up a bit. And I know I don’t have to talk about everything, but I think of blogging as a fun activity and I haven’t felt very “fun” lately.

  • 5. Sans Pantaloons  |  February 23, 2009 at 9:56 pm

    Things can only get better.
    If you have the right attitude, interesting problems will find you.

  • 6. mixednut  |  February 27, 2009 at 4:14 am

    Sans – You hit the nail on the head.


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