Love Hurts

May 30, 2007 at 7:29 am 19 comments

Nazareth couldn’t have said it better…

The past few days have been some of the most saddest and happiest I have ever had.

Ever since 1st grade, I chased the girls. I remember being caught under the teacher’s desk kissing girls at that age. But from 3rd grade to 6th grade, there was one girl I knew for sure in my heart that I really wanted to be with. I used to chase her everyday through the yard at recess, trying to tickle her and then running away, in my heart saying “I love you!”

Even at that age, I knew she was the one for me. She even showed up at my 10 year birthday party; girls at a boy’s birthday party? It’s a wonder I didn’t get my ass kicked.

Then, my family moved away, and so did hers. We lost contact as most kids do at that age. We haven’t heard from each other since. Then suddenly…

I get a message from her, 30 years later, that she found me. It was wonderful. We were never boyfriend/girlfriend, never kissed, but we had this CONNECTION. And to this day it seems the connection still exists.  We talked, e-mailed and the connection grew. Yet she is married now with a wonderful family. And although I am completely happy for them, I cannot overcome the feeling that we missed each other, like ships in the night(I know, total cliche, but it’s true).

I refuse to say “Love Stinks”, but I will say “Love Hurts”

Really hurts.


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19 Comments Add your own

  • 1. Chris  |  May 30, 2007 at 12:27 pm

    That’s really amazing and bittersweet. I wonder what prompted her to search for you after all this time.

  • 2. teri  |  May 30, 2007 at 12:53 pm

    God that sucks.

    I’m a hopeless romantic and HATE when people who are meant to be together can’t be.

  • 3. teri  |  May 30, 2007 at 12:54 pm

    I always feel that folks contact people after so long for a reason.

    what’s her reason?

  • 4. mixednut42  |  May 30, 2007 at 4:33 pm

    Teri & Chris – She said I was too addictive and it was no way to solve what was going on in her marriage. Communication has been suspended indefinitely.

  • 5. teri  |  May 30, 2007 at 5:52 pm


    who knew mixednut was addictive? hopefully there will be another opportunity with someone else, if possible.

    you do have a great sense of humor, which definitely makes you addictive.

  • 6. Doctor Mom™  |  May 31, 2007 at 1:12 am

    “Love Hurts”

    The theme song of every pining teenager from the 1970’s

    Star-crossed love, ships in the night, or puppy love

    It may just be in your best interest to stay back and let this one work itself out. She’s got junk in her closet to sort through. (and no, I don’t mean junk in her trunk)

    You DON’T want to be the rebound guy. If her marriage doesn’t work out, it should never be because of you.

    Only speaking from experience!

  • 7. mixednut42  |  May 31, 2007 at 4:38 am

    Thanks Doc. It really threw me for a loop and I’m trying not to let it affect me too much. Haven’t felt like this in a loooong time.

  • 8. Dick Small  |  May 31, 2007 at 7:49 pm

    Sorry Mixed. Being a recent divorcee, I understand COMPLETELY about unrequited love. I did find someone else though, but for 5 whole minutes, I knew what it was like to be alone…. okay, 10 minutes..

  • 9. Dick Small  |  May 31, 2007 at 7:49 pm

    …. alright, no more than 24 hours…

  • 10. mixednut42  |  May 31, 2007 at 8:18 pm

    Last word and clarification:
    My friend initially contacted me just to say Hi. Little did she know the effect it would have on both of us. The sudden and constant attention, in such a short period of time, led me to believe that she was not happy. Although she is not “in love” with her husband, she is commited to keeping a stable life for her son. I completely respect her for that. I shouldn’t have gotten my hopes up in the first place.
    Damn, timing is everything.
    *heavy sigh*

  • 11. mixednut42  |  May 31, 2007 at 8:21 pm

    Dick – You stud you!

  • 12. Dick Small  |  May 31, 2007 at 8:40 pm

    You know, if you’re not busy, I know the coziest little Italian restaurant. Just you, me, Steve…….

  • 13. mixednut42  |  May 31, 2007 at 11:13 pm

    Being vulnerable as I am right now Dick, you might get lucky. 🙂
    Hell, I’ll take you both on.

  • 14. teri  |  June 1, 2007 at 2:34 am

    wow, can I watch?

  • 15. Dick Small  |  June 1, 2007 at 9:51 am

    You know, Teri, that’s really sick. Even for you.

  • 16. Doctor Mom™  |  June 1, 2007 at 11:06 am

    Hang in there bud
    It’s an awful feeling
    Many women (and perhaps men) fall out of love with their spouses and are looking for that feeling again– it’s passion, is excitement that is missing

    You’re singing a song I have heard before…

    If she is going to fall, let her fall on her own, it’s not even a good idea for you to be there to catch her when she falls, but instead to bring flowers after she breaks her leg from the fall

  • 17. teri  |  June 1, 2007 at 1:21 pm


    just kidding actually. watching intimacy between men is NOT my thing.

  • 18. Dick Small  |  June 1, 2007 at 3:52 pm

    Hmmmm… I don’t know… my bush/cheney post seemed to get you AWFULLY excited….

  • 19. Dick Small  |  June 1, 2007 at 3:53 pm

    ..not that I could blame you, of course… i still pull it up from time to time. when I’m alone… and the shades drawn..


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