Prophecy

Damn, it’s true.

Love Hurts

Nazareth couldn’t have said it better…

The past few days have been some of the most saddest and happiest I have ever had.

Ever since 1st grade, I chased the girls. I remember being caught under the teacher’s desk kissing girls at that age. But from 3rd grade to 6th grade, there was one girl I knew for sure in my heart that I really wanted to be with. I used to chase her everyday through the yard at recess, trying to tickle her and then running away, in my heart saying “I love you!”

Even at that age, I knew she was the one for me. She even showed up at my 10 year birthday party; girls at a boy’s birthday party? It’s a wonder I didn’t get my ass kicked.

Then, my family moved away, and so did hers. We lost contact as most kids do at that age. We haven’t heard from each other since. Then suddenly…

I get a message from her, 30 years later, that she found me. It was wonderful. We were never boyfriend/girlfriend, never kissed, but we had this CONNECTION. And to this day it seems the connection still exists.  We talked, e-mailed and the connection grew. Yet she is married now with a wonderful family. And although I am completely happy for them, I cannot overcome the feeling that we missed each other, like ships in the night(I know, total cliche, but it’s true).

I refuse to say “Love Stinks”, but I will say “Love Hurts”

Really hurts.

Let go land

A few weeks ago Jen @ Casual Slack and Snowy Woodz @ 70’s- Child were talking about legos. I never played with legos much when I was a kid. But it did remind me of the times I took the Punkster to Legoland.

Have any of you heard of it? I was wondering how much promotion it gets as a vacation destination when we’ve got Disneyland here too. It’s a great little amusement park for the 4-10 year old set located near Oceanside, Ca. Most of the rides are geared toward the kids but they do have one small roller coaster that is pretty decent. They also have some terrific displays of Lego craftsmanship. So I thought I would share some with you.

Here is the Griffith Park Observatory.

Here is the legendary Hollywood Bowl.

The White House

A New York City skyline.

And Grauman’s Chinese Theatre.

Heyyyyy…these guys are good!

Lumpy

Talk about co-inkydinks.  I was perusing my usual POD sites (Pictures of the Day) this morning and came across this little gem.  It’s a picture of Providence Canyon Park in… get this…

Lumpkin, GA

What are the odds?

Click here for larger image: lumpkinga1.jpg

Bushy McBush

Chris from Some Guy’s Blog is having a contest. His is asking for your most creative entries using whatever photo application you have and the “clean” picture of Bush on his site.

This was sooo damn much fun, I didn’t want to quit! Thanks Chris!

Click here for full size: georgewbush3.jpg

Far out, man.

Your Personality Is Like Acid

A bit wacky, you’re very difficult to predict. One moment you’re in your own little happy universe… And the next, you’re on a bad trip to your own personal hell!

What Drug Is Your Personality Like?
I stole this from Dick Small’s Blog

Ahhhh…forget that last post. Everything and everyone is beautiful…
Hey!! Shut up or I’ll cut ya!! Yeah you!! ARRGGGHHHH!!!!

…Cause I’m one step closer to the edge…

…and I’m about to break!!

RANT ALERT! RANT ALERT!

Temping SUCKS!

A few years back I used to be a technical recruiter for a high-tech placement firm. I liked my job and the people I worked with. Well, most of them anyway. My boss was a spineless blob of mush but I delt with it because the money was excellent. The only drawback was the commute. It would range from 45 minutes ( a breeze) to 2 hours or more ( a real bitch).

But about 4 years ago my marriage started coming unglued (I won’t go into the reasons on this post). My ex was not capable of caring for my son and my in-laws (now out-laws) were not much help either. I had no choice but to relocate my job closer to home.

I was lucky to find a decent paying job 10 minutes from the house (still a 40% pay cut, local jobs don’t pay as much as jobs closer to L.A.). Unfortunately it was a temp position. But I knew that temp positions always have the potential to go permament. Hell, I’ve been on both sides for years, hiring temps and being one myself. Well, here it is almost 3 years later and they still haven’t opened a slot for me. And nothing so much as a cost of living increase either ( my other temp job had automatic yearly increases). All the previous temps in this position before me were let go at the end of their contract, usually one year. So WTF?!!!

Turns out I’m working for another spineless yes person. My supervisor won’t lift a finger to see what it would take to convert me to perm. And they’re the only one that can initiate the change. So I’m stuck for now. That doesn’t mean I’m not looking. I still scour the job boards online and I’m keeping my ears and eyes open here for an opening in another dept.

One thing in my favor (sorta) is that the company I work at, not for, is processing me for a Security Clearance. It’s a background check the gov’t performs on people who might be handling classified information to make sure you’re not a terrorist or anything. Just having a clearance makes one more valuable in the job market due to the fact it takes so long to get one.  This process takes 18 months to 2 years! My position originally didn’t require a clearance but last year they said “Wait, now you need a clearance to do what you do.” Thanks. If that had been initiated when I started here, I’d have my clearance by now! Helloooooo!!!

Last straw-

If you are a moral upstanding citizen that hasn’t beaten their wife or tried to overthrow the government, then you may be granted a temporary clearance. That only takes a few days and is good until they complete the entire process for a full clearance. Unfortunately, I had a few bills that became delinquent during the divorce, which were taken care of, and that led to the declination of my interim/temporary clearance. No problem. I’ll hang on for the full ride. But just this morning my boss(knowing my situation both financially and home-wise: single full-time dad) just HAD to mention to me that an employee we recently processed, that had over 18 entries of delinquent bills just got his interim clearance! What a fucking bitch!

In the immortal words of Eric Burdon and the Animals- “We gotta get outta this place, if it’s the last thing we ever do”.

California myths debunked! pt.1

Being a native from the great state of Cali I feel a certain responsibility to defend my home state from the stereotypical impressions that give Cali a bad rep. 

Myth: California will one day fall off into the Pacific Ocean.

That would never happen.  If it were true, why are there so many freakin’ people here?!  Would you move to a state that is doomed to become part of of the ocean floor?  I think not.  Not only that, but if you study a map of the U.S. you will noticed we are well attached to the continent by 3 states and 1 country.  We’re not going anywhere!  In fact, I think the fact that we have the most earthquakes is a result of California being pushed into our neighborhood states.  Safe and secure.

Now, if there is any state in danger of falling off into the ocean it would have to be Florida.  I mean look at it.  It’s attached by a lousy panhandle.  Panhandles have been known to come loose.  It’s North America’s big toe, waiting to be stubbed.  I’ll pray for you Floridians. 

Finally!

Wow.

So this is what it looks like from the inside.  I thought it would be much bigger.

Greeting and salutations!  Welcome to It’s A Mixednut World.   If you’ve come looking for truth, enlightenment, salvation, or culture, please keep moving, nothing to see here.

I’ve been wanting to start this blog-a-ma-thingy because a) it seems like a lot of fun, and b) I could use an outlet to vent my fears, frustrations and general observations on various things.  Having been the transient commenter for far too long I decided it was time to put down some roots.  It’s not much to look at now, but with a few window treatments and a coat of paint here and there, it will be a place I can call home.

Now, I’m not sure what will end up on this here site, but I will do my best to be anything but boring.  I won’t be posting any “cute pictures of my family” and if I do post any pictures of my cat, you can bet they won’t be “cute”.  Heh!

Over the past year I’ve come to know a small circle of bloggers that are some of the most intelligent, coolest, and funniest people I’ve ever “met”.  They’re listed over there in the sidebar thingy.  I’m sending out my love to you all as thanks for the encouragement and support you have given me.

**muuuahhh**

You guys rock out loud!! 

Ahem…

I thought about you today.  But then again, I think about you everyday. 

On this particular day, for some reason, I was the overachiever.  Cleaned the entire house.  Did several loads of laundry.  Started this blog.  And all the while I was thinking of you.

I owe so much to you.  And the only way I can pay it back is to pass it along to my son.  It was from you that I learned how to be strong when the time came.  And how to be tender as well.  You were there for me when things in my life fell apart.  Your support was what saw me through that rough stretch of road.  But you had been down that road yourself, many years before. 

I have alway admired your independence and strong will to do what you thought was right, and it usually was.  Your sacraficies to make sure I turned out to be a decent human being have not gone unappreciated.  I find myself in a somewhat similar situation that you were in when I was but a mere tike, and I am trying my best to handle it the way you would have. 

For you have been my inspiration and always will be.  I am missing you more than usual today because today is Mother’s Day and I would do anything to have you here again.  I have no doubts that you know exactly how I’m feeling today because not a day passed that I didn’t tell you how much I love you.  You are the best Mom. 

Happy Mothers Day. 

Love,

your mixednut